Hyman Minsky came up with this idea that stability breeds instability/chaos.http://www.economist.com/node/13415233 i believe he also carried this over to nature – that anything that is stable is bound to fail sooner or later simply by its own nature. This is something we should all look out for and take action against – STABILITY IS DANGEROUS.
That is actually quite funny because it is directly against everything we strive to achieve – we try to put things in boxes so we can understand them – its basic to our nature and the way we are. However if you consider stability and what it does to us then it begins to have a different shade.
I am having a little war with one of my neighbors. i can talk about this here because first of all he doesent speak English and secondly this “blog” is not really intended for public consumption, being a litte sort of anti blog – or lets be clearer – for my benefit, not yours.
I think its partly territorial and partly pure indignation that im not following the “rules.” he is a farmer, beset by many problems. When i first came here in 2002 his cows were out in the summer – we had many jolly conversations and moments. Then he got divorced and the cows no longer came out. Then he bought an automatic milking machine – new tractors, new this, new that. one thing he does is snow plough the road in front of my house for his relatives at the end of the road – he found my row of trees to his dislike so one day when i was abroad he took them out. On coming back i asked him what had happened? He told me that the electricity people came and took them out because they were interfering with the power lines – so okkkk, where is the wood? Gone – and where are the roots – sooooo, the electricity people came – cut my trees down and even dug up the roots – then took the lot away??
I feel it is important to have relatively good relationships with neighbors if possible but first they need to understand for this to work that i have the same rights and feelings they do!!!
I decided to build a nice stone wall in front of my property – so i did with stones gathered from his fields nearby and from a pile he had dumped next to my land. that did not meet with his approval either and he demolished it with his snowplough.
The land here is peat bog, marsh and generally damp – the farmers have been draining the area for years – unfortunately the crops are only grass for the cows which are they no longer allowed to fetch. Another little thing is that when i first came here there were many Deer, Hares and other animals – over they years all the grass has been replanted – i have done some research and its either a monocrop or something a little less benign – purposefully planted so that the deer dont feed – not very nice for the cows i should think either. Anyways due to bad weather there is a shortage of grass – maybe also due to the number of horses requiring fodder in the area too – but i digress.
So to clear more land he placed an advertisement concerning the trees – anyone interested please come and cut them down – lots of people did. Next thing is there is a pile of logs sitting on my land.
After a few weeks i make some inquiries? No one seems to know, so i gather it up and move it next to my house – its possible it was a present from one of my many friends. Maybe it wasnt, but at the end of the day you dont just dump a pile of logs on someones land and expect them to stay there at your convenience.
So after a little consultation with another neighbor i picked them up – before i had got the second load in i was met by my neighbors mother. “what did i think i was doing?” – “They were not my logs,” ok says i “whoose.” She said she didnt know but i had no right to move them. I said that perhaps i should ask her son for the number of the guy concerned. She said that i was obviously simple – that i did not know how things were done around here. i said to her that life is simple.
Less than 2 hours later a man arrived with a van – he said he did not know anyone lived here – so i said that i could either buy his logs or he could remove them – but it was private land and he should have known, did he not ask my neighbor?? I bought the logs from him.
Later i saw his van parked outside my neighbors house for quite a while. So he did know them and i was being told a pack of lies – the wood was not placed there by accident it was placed there because my friendly neighbor has such a gross contempt for me that he is happy to lie.
So what do i feel? First of all i feel angry – definitively angry with myself for allowing this to happen. And angry with him for being so weak.
But on careful analysis i realize that he is a grossly unhappy man and is now directing this towards me. Someone asked me what i felt about him, in fact it was a local farmer who had given up his cows some years ago. I told him that he was a prisoner and working just for the bank, he agreed.
So what has this to do with chaos? As you go through life the events that occur and the way they happen dictates a pattern. The largest part of this is to do with failure and success.
If you are doing something that could lead to success but somewhere deep down you realize it wont, then you may find yourself the subject of self sabotage, sometimes silly little things, sometimes things like repeated accidents – ACCIDENTS?? By their very nature they are accidents, surely??
I cannot deal with how other people treat me – but i can deal with myself and how i feel – i have processes and long tried remedies. How should i feel about this? How should i deal with this?
The first barrier as i said is myself and that is under process – so thank you neighbor, for the awakening. But i will not be the target for a decent mans angst, sooner or later that little bit of angst will turn really nasty so it has to stop.
i look for alternative ways to do things – i love upsetting the status quo mainly because i believe it is healthy and because it is my way to success. Time for a film.